Monday, March 29, 2010

The Ghost of a Dress

"Excuse me, ma'am." says a great white ghost hanging contemptuously in the dining room. "Remember me?"

Yep. That's my wedding dress. Completely un-assembled.

Why haven't I sewn it together yet? The mock-up turned out fine. I reached my target body weight. There's no other legitimate excuse not to put it together.

But I just can't bring myself to do it.

The cause behind the lack of enthusiasm? Maybe I'm experiencing what many other brides do - the second-guess-fear. What if I don't love it as much as I did the first time I saw it? What if my tastes have changed, and the general consensus really has convinced me that pick-ups are out? What if I haven't lost enough weight, and I still look like a giant next to Sak? What if I do a bad job sewing, and it falls apart while I trip down the aisle? What if it gets dirty, and rips to shreds at the dry cleaners?

Neither does it help that Sak is being oh-so-very-meticulous about the construction of the dress. Even cutting out the pieces took longer than expected due to his demands that each snippet be exact and perfect. Much different than the hasty, but adequate, job we did on the mock-up.

Where I deal with my dress fears in avoidance, he deals with his in impossible standards.

Did I mention that I also don't have a back-up dress? This apparition over my dining table is it. The pressure is on.

And there's really only one way to answer all the "what-if" questions.

So no more hiding from you, wrinkled-spirit in white. I will sew that smug smile right off your face, straight onto my rear end. Just you wait. No looking back, I will begin today.

Did you have any dress fears before receiving your final gown? Did it end up in genuine regret, or sweet reassurance?


  1. Oh my! Can't wait to see how it comes together! Finding one that was ready made was hard enough for me!

  2. Do it do it do it! Or have Sak do it if he's so picky? haha. Well... the sooner you do it the sooner you can tell if you love it, can tolerate it, or hate it and then run to buy another dress if you really hate it :] There are some good deals out there (I'v got tips!) so there can always be a back up plan! :]

  3. I am so excited, please start now!! I promise it will be beautiful and perfect :)

  4. haha, yeah.. we're working on it! and hopefully i won't have to take you up on those back up tips, alvina!

  5. Dear kindred spirit, I'm also making my own dress too...and I admit, yeah, I sometimes do feel the dress... fearing that I might not love it much when I'm done with it. And so, here I am with three months to go, not yet finished with my dress which I started making a year ago. Whew!

  6. @marikoy - wow, that's awesome you're making your own dress too! you can do it, and you'll love it when you finish, I promise :)